I’m actually coming to you live right now – from my favorite Starbucks, with a giant iced coffee in hand. If we were having coffee together right now, there are many things I would say. So, let’s pretend you’re here, and you have your drink of choice in front of you, and that the friendly barista made it just perfectly (the A-team is totally in right now).
We don’t have a lot of time, so I’ll probably do most of the talking, because I’m feeling needy. I like to think that most of the time, I’m not super needy… but today, this week, I am. It’s not cute, but it’s honest.
I’ve been in a weird emotional state all week. Surprisingly, it’s been completely unrelated to holiday madness. I’d call it primarily a weird funk brought on by some weird insecurities at work and well, just my normal crazy rollercoaster of emotion.
But talking about work is boring (and also not a good idea because, hello, this is the Internet). So hopefully you’d make me change the subject before we went down that gnarly path of tedium.
I read a great book a few weeks ago that has given me much to think about, though I was somewhat embarrassed to even pick it up. It is called How to Be Interesting.
It was really good. And so easy to read. With lots of fun drawings and pictures and venn diagrams. I like to think that you’re the type of person that might like it though, and that you might find the conversation about it stimulating in some way.
Anyway, if we were having coffee right now, I’d probably want to bring this book up because I’d want to talk about my fear of being boring and predictable. And how I know that’s an irrational fear.
Just like the majority of my emotions this week. Irrational.
A lot of the time, I’m super upbeat on this blog. In general, I like upbeat people. Optimism abounds. And pessimism isn’t a trait that looks good on me in any way.
But I need you to know that I’m not always like that in real life.
I need you know that my life can be very mundane. And very not together.
And that there is a lot of stuff I’m trying to work through and work on.
Because nobody has their shit together. Literally nobody.
And if they look like they do, what you see is only one tiny piece of the puzzle.
HOWEVER. If we were having coffee right now, I’d tell you that today, I’m going to choose joy. And do everything I can to pull myself out of the basement of my emotions.
Sometimes, “fake it ‘til you make it” isn’t the worst advice in the world. Because many times, it works.
Joy. Let’s be friends today.
Because really, there is a LOT for me to be joyful about right now. My best friend is in town, my birthday is in two days, I get to see my family in 4 days, I get almost a week off of work, and a new year is on the horizon.
It should be easy to choose to be happy today. So I’m going to. And it’s going to work.
Thanks for listening. Glad I could get this off my chest.
But oh shoot, it’s time for work. I’ve got to run. Thanks for the coffee date, and have a good Friday!
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