This morning, I woke up naturally when the room was filled with sunlight.
I laid in bed, content with my night’s sleep. Excited for the day ahead.
Then I went to the kitchen, cooked myself a delicious meal, and ate it freed from distraction, thinking about the potential I had for my day.
There was a calmness and assuredness that has been missing in my life recently that I didn’t even realize my soul was thirsting for. I drank it up. And feel great having done so.
Lately, as you might able to tell from my lack of new posts, I’ve been struggling to figure out where blogging fits into my life. To determine how much time is worth devoting to a hobby that I love… but that doesn’t necessarily co-incide with my other priorities right now.
So I spent much of the last week drafting a post in my head entitled “Why I Blog.”
When I sat down to write this morning, that post felt uninspired. Instead, I did two things:
- I spent two hours re-reading parts of The Desire Map and thinking about how I want to feel and the intentions I want in my life. I added a few sun salutations to the end of this process because every time I read Danielle LaPorte’s stuff I feel more in touch with my inner yoga-loving hippie.
- I looked at one of my first posts in which I wrote about intentional living. And then I went through the tag I’ve used on several other posts on this blog called “intentional living.”
In doing these two things, I realized: This blog was started with the mission of bring more intention into my life. More peace. More smart striving. More reflection. More time for pausing and reflecting. More intentional creativity and skill development.
It started as a way to elevate the priorities in my life. Not to compromise them.
I’ve fallen a bit from that original intention in the past two or three months.
I removed my Life List to make space for advertising options. I started adding sponsors to the end of my posts, whether they fit or not. I created a few posts I KNEW would drive a bunch of additional Pinterest traffic and in turn, increase my ad revenue.
I’m not saying any of these things are wrong, or that I regret doing any of them. I recently purchased tickets to Seattle this fall using solely income from blogging and felt awesome doing so.
But, I’d be remiss if I didn’t acknowledge the ways in which these things have left me resentful toward this space in the past few weeks. Feeling obligated to respond to emails, do right by my sponsors, and in general, devote a significant portion of my week planning and writing posts isn’t staying in line with my original mission for this blog:
To lead an intentional, celebratory life. And to share my story in hopes of relating with others that are striving to do the same.
Thus, it got me thinking: what does intentional living look like to me? My answer:
Intentional living looks like good sleep, a healthy diet, adequate movement that I actually enjoy, seeking out opportunities for travel and new experiences, creativity without restrictions, strong performance at work, music that lights up my brain synapses, books that help me strive and help me escape, and the freedom to enjoy and seek out fulfilling, soul-enhancing relationships.
And since I’m an over-sharer by nature who loves to write, documenting and sharing these things in this space.
Once I felt clear on what an intentional life actually meant to me, I asked the every important question:
WHY? Why do I want to live with intention? Isn’t it easier to just go with the flow? To take things in stride and deal with them as they come?
Yes. I’m sure that is easier. But the major thing I wanted to avoid when I started this blog was allowing my life to pass me by in a tiring loop of sleep, eat, work, get drunk, watch Netflix, repeat.
I want my twenties to be more than that. I want to challenge myself with goals and dreams and ideas. And I want to respect the process of seeing them all come to fruition.
So what does all of this mean for this blog? For the readers of this blog?
Basically, not a lot. I’ll be posting less in the summer months, simply because I love to walk the dog through the neighborhood multiple nights a week and spend the weekends exploring St. Louis on my bike or enjoying drinks on patios with my friends. My prime blogging time has been shortened as the days have lengthened. I figure you’re probably outside doing the same things, so you probably won’t even notice me coming ’round here less.
In the future, I’ll be writing much more about intentions. And reflecting on the things I’m working toward. Sharing my progress every now and then.
There are a few topics that still remain off limits for this blog (primarily fitness and dating) but I’ll be talking more about how I’m designing my life to serve my soul. So I suppose we might re-categorize All Things E from a “Personal Lifestyle Blog” to an “Intentional Living Blog,” which may or may not be a niche, but whatever. I’m calling it a niche.
Most of all, I see this space as a place to celebrate and discuss the rewards of living an intentional life. Whether it’s sharing stories from others who have discovered a way to live that lights them up, or reveling in the little (and big) things that are going on in my life that support my vision for myself.
At the end of the day, while I blog for myself, I also blog because I want to inspire others to give a shit about their day-to-day lives, even when it’s easy not to. Even when the paychecks are small or non-existent and those thirty pounds you want to lose won’t budge and you’re stuck in a relationship that doesn’t light you up. Even when you’re trudging through the the endless loop of sleep, eat, work, get drunk, Netflix, repeat and trying to figure out a way out.
There’s more to life. And I don’t want to miss it. And I don’t want you to, either.
Here’s to re-committing to the intentional life. And to REALLY embracing the things that make us FEEL GOOD.
Have a lovely week.